Life is great?

Okay so I am doing alot better at this whole blog thing! I actually have more than 3 posts! Okay so alot has been happening in life! It has been so busy! I am off the bad list at work temporarily, I just found out that I am getting some money from the government I didn't know about and I started World War 3 in the Shaw family Household without meaning too. Okay first thing is first, work has been going much better I finally have a team that is all on the samepage even if my assistant is having some stress and being kinda pissy. I googled my name on the internet and found out that HUD has a refund from some mortgage insurance from my house in Cedar City $823.00 to be exact and I found out that Marcee is owed some too! Wow the things you learn from Google. And on to World War 3. It all started with the voicing of an opinion and so far we are refusing to go anywhere that the other person is. So here is the story, My sister in law is pregnant which I am so happy about and she is having a boy! I asked if they had picked a name yet and she said they had and that the middle name was Robert, which is Mikes middle name. I replied that Mike and I were upset that she was using Robert as it is Mikes middle name and the we were using it for our first son. She replied that she was sorry but that was the name she had chosen. To summarize the next emails I basically called her selfish and inconsiderate which she then turned around and told me I was because I have a good job and can afford nice things and we got married before them even though we knew how badly she wanted too and that makes her feel bad and that I am being selfish because we buy nice christmas presents and open on christmas with the family. Okay first off they wern't even engage when Mike proposed and we set our date and they have had 8 years now to get married and haven't what we were supposed to do put our lives on hold until they finally got around to getting married. Also what she never realizes is that every year the whole family has a discussion over wether or not to open any presents from each other to make sure that she and Brian don't feel bad or that we rarely share the finacal stress that Mikes car accident has added or how we struggle to make ends meet just like every other person sometimes. Anyways I feel bad that it has turned out the way it has so far but I am not going to apologize for working my ass off to get where I am and being upset with her using Mikes middle name and that brings us to the fun that is ongoin in my life. My mother in law who I love dearly then proceeds to ask me if I will help her plan a wedding for Trish and Brian because she thinks that will fix everything. I hope eventually things will go back to normal with one slight difference, I will never agian believe that she actually cares about me, if she did we wouldn't be where we are because she would have taken our feelings into consideration and would have realized that we do things every day and every time that the family gets together to try to ease the discomfort of the choices that they have made and the circumstances that they are in. Okay now that I have rambled on about the craziness that is my life I am off to go live it.

The randomness at 3 am

Well Mike is at a friends house I came home because I have not been feeling well and I was very tired only to get home and not be able to sleep because Harley is sick and keeps throwing up go figure. So we had a little bit of a scare this month, I don't know if Mike wants me to share but this is my blog so I can write about what I want LOL. About 3 weeks ago Mike found a lump in his left testicle. With the family history of cancer needless to say we were slightly worried. Turned out to be a type of cyst that they usually leave alone unless it gets bigger or is painful which was good news. New Years Eve was not as big as expected but we had fun none the less we hung out and played poker until 2 am and in true Ashlee fashion I tripped on a chair and dislocated my toe ( I know big shocker huh???)

This month is going to be crazy!!! I have a tour with our new region VP of Operations on thursday next friday is my third basic in my action plan that I have pass with 80%, the week after that all of my team have to have appraisals done on them and presented, the week after that I have a team meeting that I have to get ready for and the week after that is Annual meeting and I though my life was crazy when I was single and in school!

On a more random note I know that once you get a diagnosis you are supposed to feel better but I am not sure I believe that at the moment. After I was Diagnosed with PCOS I thought oh good I have a reason but as the months go by and the pain continues and the tests go on to monitor the cysts and the possiblity of yet another surgery looms ahead I think I wish I was back in happy oblivion yes the pain was horrible but at least I wasn't freaking out about losing the one ovary I have left. And on that randomness I am off to clean up after the dog yet again, stupid husband for staying at Zach's house tonight.